Gathering My Courage

Photos by Nick Firestone
It’s been a tough week and it’s only Wednesday, but it’s alright, I’ve been here before, and know exactly what to do. 

It’s 7:00 pm and I’ll be turning in early, I’ve had a nutrient packed dinner and a walk with my dog. Taking care of myself is priority one.

What weighs heavily on me now, is the ash spreading ceremony that I’ve been planning in Tahoe on the anniversary of my husband’s death next week.  Having 25 people to Tahoe is no small thing. 

However, at the same time, it’s been very busy with Ocean SF, and ensuring I complete key deliverables as I lay the foundation for my future. We are always living simultaneously in the present, future, and the past.

Today, I worked writing and editing the copy for our marketing materials, then I had them printed for Andrew to proof, so I made a few visits to our printers, then met with Andrew for lunch at The Station in Berkeley, our favorite place at the moment. I ordered a salad and a side of sweet potato fries.  

Andrew’s been working on documents for our stock allocations. Luckily he’s an expert at this having grown up around Venture Capitalists. 

I think it’s important to remember, when we try to do new things, that it’s possible to grow into any role. 

I’m more comfortable than I thought I would be at this stage. Over the winter, my business coach Brigette would tell me, over and over, to step into my power, and I think I finally have. 

Next week, I’ll put this all aside, and return once again to the life I had as a wife and mother, a life that I am now putting to rest.  

I’m praying it will be calm and beautiful.

Love and blessings to all. 

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