I now have a day to separate my future from my past. I wanted the one last thing that I did for my husband to be beautiful and it was. We spread his ashes yesterday at dawn on a beautiful summer day in one of the most beautiful places in the world.
We spent the day as we had planned at the beach with our friends and then, last night, some of our closest friends joined us for dinner at our home in Truckee.
Three families that we have raised our children with, and skied with ,over the years were here for dinner, as were my husband’s best friends, or the original Bushwood golf foursome. My close friend Debra, as well as my kids and their friends.
It was a beautiful evening in every way. We have closure now and some sense of peace, or as much as is possible, although, I’ve come to realize there are things you never really get over, you just learn to live with them gracefully, and not allow them to influence your happiness.
I feel that I have done everything that I could to honor the vows I took when we married, I ensured his life was honored, and his wishes were respected.
Now, that is behind me, I want to write another book, I’ve also been asked to teach again next year at UC Berkeley. I enjoy my work on The Trident Project and Ocean SF and that keeps me very busy.
Someday, our boat Solana will be in the water, and I’ve been invited to sail around the world, after my youngest heads to college, in 2019.
I’ve worked hard to lay this foundation, and be a role model for my children. Hard work generally pays off, and with that being said, I now step into my future.
Love and blessings to all.
Sydney 